When I first made the decision to go to college, I didn’t think of myself as a writer at all. I was so hands-on with my learning style, and found it very challenging to attend classes that were in a traditional format. Having ADHD makes it really difficult for me to sit still and concentrate, even if I am interested in the topic being presented.
I ended up transferring to Goddard College, and it was there that my love of reading and writing really blossomed. I had no desire to write outside of what I was doing educationally. The program I was in was very writing intensive, due to the fact that it is a low-residency individualized education . I studied what I loved, and developed a lust for learning. I started writing more and more, and it seemed as though I couldn’t say enough. My senior study was 200 pages – an undergraduate thesis, that probably would have satisfied the criteria for a Master’s thesis. Once I really got into the work, I went above and beyond the requirements, because too much was never enough for me!
It didn’t hit me that I had potential until my Advisor at the time called me a “prolific writer” in an evaluation for the fall, 2003 semester. Still, the only reason I wanted to write was to get my degree. It didn’t dawn on me until recently that I could take up writing seriously, perhaps even, as a way to bring in some additional income. I realized that the way I am going to make my living is by pursuing a career as a freelancer. I have skills that are valuable in many different jobs, and in this economy, you have to be flexible and open-minded to bring in the bucks.
When I say I’m a “freelancer” I’m not just talking about writing; I’m also talking about music, singing, digital projects, entertainment, and anything I can do to utilize my talents to supplement my disability income. My goal is to eventually become self-sufficient and able to make a decent living without having to rely on the government for their help. I know the sky is the limit, but for right now, I want to focus on small, attainable goals.
Currently, I’m working with my friend Annie on a multi-media project, which is going to be a video/digital scrapbook/story about a guy who is transgender. I am also working on a learning more about my family so that I can write a book and/or create a documentary. In addition to that, I want to create a better online presence for the band I joined this year, and continue to work on my solo music too. I still haven’t given up on the dream of using my music to make the world a better place. I have stories to tell, and writing music, blogging, and performing are all ways I am able to get those stories out there…
Sometimes my goals are a little too lofty, so this year, I just want to focus on doing the most important things first. Right now, that means working on the project with Annie, while maintaining this blog, and doing preliminary research on my family project. In addition, I am going to research grants and reach out to others who might be able to assist me with my goals.
For years I’ve lamented that my bachelor’s degree (in liberal arts/music) is utterly useless. It dawned on me last spring that I am not meant to be in a traditional work environment. I have been pursuing the wrong avenues and decided that the only way for me to ever be successful, at least by my own standards, is to be in business for myself. I went to a progressive college for a reason, and I am more determined than ever to put my education to good use. “Trust the process” is what we were told at Goddard, and honestly, I finally trust that I have what it takes to make it in this world.
2014 will be a year of success and prosperity for me. I trust that if I keep putting one foot in front of the other, I will manifest all the good things I deserve. There is no other way!!!!