I think it safe to say that I have ADHD based on the amount of time I spend procrastinating, or starting new projects that never get finished. Nowhere is that more evident to me than right here on my blog. I have drafted about 5 different posts recently, and haven’t gotten around to completing and publishing them. This is a testament to the fact that I really need to be treated for this issue. I know there are so many things I could be getting done, and I wouldn’t be in the mess I’m in right now, had I spent more time focusing on the things I’m good at, rather than the things that bring me down. See, mental illness rears its ugly head from time to time and I have to get on top of it before it consumes me altogether. But that’s neither here nor there as far as I’m concerned.
I am a work in progress, just like everyone else, only the difference is I am honest, and I’m getting to a point where I’m not really interested in what other people think of who I am personally, professionally, or otherwise. I realize I’m opening myself up to criticism by putting my shit out there in the world – even though I’m really not that important in whatever world I’m trying to carve my niche in.
I have so many things in my brain that I want to just get out there, and NOW! But I can’t figure out what is more important. I can’t prioritize and that’s a serious problem for a creative person. I want to make my living being creative but if I can’t get organized to begin with, how am I ever going to make money? I have to have a plan that I stick to, and that’s gonna be tough, but I think that if I just spend some time setting goals and figuring out how to get from A to B to C, I will be alright.
ADHD be damned, I am not going to let you derail me any longer! Time to get some treatment for this problem….stay tuned!